I typically keep my personal self off of this space (honestly you get enough of my inner working s through my writing) but I feel the need to update on my current "brainspace".
So yesterday I took what my fiancee and I call an "incognito day." Basically he turns off my phone and I am not allowed any access to the internet, text messaging, social media or non-face-to-face interaction with the outside world. In other words I disconnect. I took off work, I pre-loaded my homework, and I informed my family to call him if they needed me.
Here's why I do this: I'm overworked and I feel like a jar of jelly beans at a 10 year old birthday party; all the kids reach in and grab a handful with no regard to how empty the jar is getting. So periodically I take a day (or a few) and step back and reclaim a few of my jelly beans and take stock of how many have been stolen.
Now in the past these incognito days have really helped me. They allow me to stop checking my email reflexively do something fun with Vin and recharge. This time that was not the case.
"Run the Clue music!" - "But here's what really happened!" : I had to have my finance physically restrain me from my phone, I still conned him into letting me check it three time during the day and I felt so guilty taking time for myself and my mental health I actually made myself sick. THAT'S NOT GOOD! I have 2.5 semesters of Digipen left and I HAVE to get out of there, I refuse to not graduate, something has to change. I'm honestly not sure what, but too many jelly beans have/are being stolen, my sanity cannot keep going like this... something's got to give back.
.... So what's willing to give me my jelly beans back? I honestly don't know.... but when I find out I will let you know. For now, continue to support me by reading my inner workings through Onnie's adventure.
Thanks everyone, now back to our regularly scheduled program!